Tuesday, January 20, 2009


I just want to thank everyone for their sympathy. I also want to apologize to every one for not answering my phone. I will get back in contact with everyone as soon as I can handle it. I know many people have been concerned about us. This has been a rough time for our family. The hardest thing (that I didn't expect) is mourning Maya, then switching gears and celebrating Iris and her milestones. It's exhausting.

On Saturday the 17th Dustin and I decided to take Maya off her support and let her pass. I will spare every one the details of holding Maya and watching her take her last breath. It is nothing I would wish on anyone. Her Dr. was supportive in our decision. She said if Maya were her child she would do the same thing. Maya tolerated pneumonia, kidney disease. Then from all the fluid and pneumonia she ended up getting lung disease and a large cyst in her lung.

I have no more tears left to cry. My eyes are raw from rubbing them and my throat is sore.

The NICU here is set up in 3 levels...Level 3 is for the ones that need to most support, level 1 is for the ones getting ready to go home. Iris will be moved up to level 2 either tomorrow or the day after. She is growing and acting more and more like a baby. She cries when mommy puts her cold hands on her or plays with her feet. I love it! Iris is my reason for getting up and being strong. We will definately miss Maya and celebrate her short life.


Jackie and Andy said...

I think you are the strongest person I know. Don't worry about calling anyone back...they (including me) will get over it. =)

I am so glad to hear that Iris is thriving. Kiss her a hundred times each day if they will let you!

Tasha said...

I can't imagine what it has been like for you two, just know that Paul and I are here for you anytime. She fought as long as her little body would let her.

SchulzVance said...

No apologies for not answering your phone. Mourning Maya with you, and looking forward to seeing Iris and her cousin, whatever-his-name-ends-up-being, play together in the years to come.

Jackie and Andy said...


I hope you are having a better week, that God is helping you through this, and that baby Iris is continuing to grow everyday.


Jessica Trevino said...

Stacy, I am so sorry for your loss. I posted a comment on your facebook page and then I decided to check out your blog because I just started one myself.

Be strong and let your family and friends be there for you. Your beautiful little girl needs her mommy.

I know that we lost touch after high school, but please let me know if there is anything that I can do for you. Please take care and God bless you and your family.